Flaws Galore

Everyone at some point in their life have slipped down a step or a patch of ice. That moment of time when you want to control, you know how to control, it just doesn't happen.

The past few months I have been feeling that way on several occasions. It is not like I am helpless but it is as if I choose to be helpless. You don't need enemies outside yourself if you yourself are your worst enemy. The list of things I dislike in myself just keeps growing and hence this rant. These are things I cannot tell anyone because no one is close enough. Its is just me and then there is me and so here I go.

Things I don't like about me:

1. Procrastination (simple plain old laziness)
2. Lack of Will power
3. Envy
4. Needing to be in control
5. Depression
6. Never following through with things I set out to do
7. Competitiveness without competence
8. Seeking acknowledgement and praise
9. Unhappiness

I can just go on. It is in such times that I miss Sid. If he were around maybe he would talk me into getting back on track, I liked that sense of accountability.

Now how do I deal with this, how can a patient deal with a disease when he/she is suffering from it.