Sorry for the delay. Like all things was postponing this too. Anyways the good news is got A's in both courses last semester. Bad news is everything else.
Have off until Jan 2. I don't look forward to going to work on Jan 3. The last week M made my life miserable. Anyways I have decided to think less of her. Come Jan 3, she is a necessary evil anyways. Why spoil my mood now itself. I have enough going on as it is.
Prem wrote to me today. He is getting married to Esther on Jan 16. I wish him the very best. The little I know him, he is a very good guy. Very down to earth, very simple, humble, unpretentious and reasonable. And what he has told me of Esther, she seems to be like him too. I feel very happy for him. He is one of the success stories of s.c. I have kind of known him since he first started speaking to Easther. She is pretty, they make a perfect match.Good Luck and Best wishes and all happiness to them.
Will be flying to Seattle on Jan 6. This maybe the last time I will meet Sid. I want to savor every moment of it. But I am not sure if I will. I am with him all the time. I just hope after I come back I don't feel terribly sad and depressed. Well we will see about that, wont we.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Finally!!! I am done! Atleast for now!
Finished my finals today. I am not sure if I did well. I hope I get a good grade. Getting As in both will be cool. I not sure if C++ will be curved. I am curious about it because it is so ambiguous. I don't even want to think about it. I don't care. I don't know what the policy for curving is. Now that exams are done I should start planning my rest of the winter.
I am at AAC now. I was hoping to get out of here by 6:30. Doesn't look like it. M wants me to stay. She was the one who said I can leave at 6:30. Well she is the boss.Anyways I get outta here whenever I get out. But I am tired for sure. My back is aching too. I have been sitting and studying since Saturday. Maybe that's why.
Yesterday something interesting happened.Over the weekend myself and Sid have had some interesting exchanges which was border line argument. And yesterday he said something and I started yelling at him. Well he was commenting about something and I din't like it. He realized it even as he was saying. He finished the sentence with a sorry. And I started yelling. He went completely silent. It was funny. And then he says "I think we are losing each other". For someone who hears this, it may seem like we are breaking up or something. But it was endearing, in a very weird way. He sounded so sad. And I think he felt worse when I dint give a reply. As if I also think so. Maybe I don't think so, but I wanted him to think that. Maybe he is right. I get sadistic pleasure in hurting people who like me.
And then after he said that I just changed the topic to something very random. I am not sure if he has made his decision yet. But I am in no mood to care about it anymore. Then he called to wake me up this morning and then again after my exam and then again while he was leaving for home. As if he was trying to make amends. Well I don't mind. I will just enjoy it while it stays. I guess !!!
I am at AAC now. I was hoping to get out of here by 6:30. Doesn't look like it. M wants me to stay. She was the one who said I can leave at 6:30. Well she is the boss.Anyways I get outta here whenever I get out. But I am tired for sure. My back is aching too. I have been sitting and studying since Saturday. Maybe that's why.
Yesterday something interesting happened.Over the weekend myself and Sid have had some interesting exchanges which was border line argument. And yesterday he said something and I started yelling at him. Well he was commenting about something and I din't like it. He realized it even as he was saying. He finished the sentence with a sorry. And I started yelling. He went completely silent. It was funny. And then he says "I think we are losing each other". For someone who hears this, it may seem like we are breaking up or something. But it was endearing, in a very weird way. He sounded so sad. And I think he felt worse when I dint give a reply. As if I also think so. Maybe I don't think so, but I wanted him to think that. Maybe he is right. I get sadistic pleasure in hurting people who like me.
And then after he said that I just changed the topic to something very random. I am not sure if he has made his decision yet. But I am in no mood to care about it anymore. Then he called to wake me up this morning and then again after my exam and then again while he was leaving for home. As if he was trying to make amends. Well I don't mind. I will just enjoy it while it stays. I guess !!!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Approaching an end !
Its December already. Very soon the semester is going to come to an end. Monday and Tuesday are my exams. And then I will done for this semester. May be end of my student life. I hope so. I gave my thesis to my prof to look it over. Hopefully all goes well and I am able to defend in January. I am so ready to get done with it. Like I said earlier I am curious about my life, my future. I think anything will be better than now.Your guess is as good as mine. Lets see.
And another thing. I think my association with Sid wont be for long. He is edging towards making a decision. At some point this is to happen. And I think I am preparing myself real well. Yesterday when he was telling me about his indecision, I was surprised at myself I dint feel much of anything. Maybe I have started accepting it. Thats good isnt it. I dont know myself. Maybe I will grieve and mourn the loss.But what about Vinnci's parents , Justin's parents. What about them. If they can survive I can too. My loss is definitely not close to theirs.
Anyways now I have to plan my future. I like planning. It is cool. I also promised Sid to find him an apartment. He is very busy next week. After tuesday I wont be that busy anyways. I will find him a good apartment. This will be my last gift to him. I am also very doubtful if I will visit him. I am not sure if I will be comfortable. Lets see.
And another thing. I think my association with Sid wont be for long. He is edging towards making a decision. At some point this is to happen. And I think I am preparing myself real well. Yesterday when he was telling me about his indecision, I was surprised at myself I dint feel much of anything. Maybe I have started accepting it. Thats good isnt it. I dont know myself. Maybe I will grieve and mourn the loss.But what about Vinnci's parents , Justin's parents. What about them. If they can survive I can too. My loss is definitely not close to theirs.
Anyways now I have to plan my future. I like planning. It is cool. I also promised Sid to find him an apartment. He is very busy next week. After tuesday I wont be that busy anyways. I will find him a good apartment. This will be my last gift to him. I am also very doubtful if I will visit him. I am not sure if I will be comfortable. Lets see.
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