A different me

I know, I know, I was supposed to finish catching up, I said in a few hours. Got a little side tracked. I have an idea. I will continue about my trip later. Let me do some talking about the present. Yes, there is a lot of sadness and discontent in my life. And writing my heart out here feels very good. But for a change I wont dwell on my sadness in this post.

I have taken assembler and advanced programming in C++ this semester. School started on Jan 17. I have been a little complacent this semester, which is not good. I am going to get on track this weekend. Have an assignment due on Monday and another due on Tuesday. I am yet to start working, but I am going to finish them both before Monday.

My job search also needs some momentum. The Intel website is still giving me trouble. It is one of my strong desires to work for Intel. It will be like a dream coming true. I have decided that I will join a consultant in May. Its high time I take charge.

I met Dr.M on Jan 17. He said that he has still not started reading my thesis. I hope he does it soon and lets me defend without too much trouble. I am going to give up on it if he is not satisfied or something like that. I cant keep dragging this on for the rest of my life.

One other thing I am happy about it is my fitness regime. Since school started I have been working out very regularly and watching my diet too. I have started doing strength training along with cardio. I have not lost any weight since I have started. For some reason I am not very worried. Never have I done as much strength training as I am doing now. And I have a feeling that I am building muscle , hence the no difference in weight. I also feel less pressured this time. I am doing this just for myself this time. I don't have a deadline, I am not doing it to please anybody, I have not set any time or weight goal. I think I am doing all the right things and yes I do slip sometimes. But that's fine. I will do what I have too and not care about the result. No point in stressing myself out or getting obsessed. I am also cooking quite a bit. Cooking is therapeutic and yes not spending money on eating out is also good. I found milled flax. Using it quite a bit. Adding a lot of milk to my diet. I have also subscribed to an online journal which will help me keep track of my weight, diet and exercise. It costs 5 dollars per month. It has a calorie and nutrient counter and many such tools. It will be fun.

J is leaving on Tuesday. I will miss her. And yes I am thinking of getting off anti-Depressants. Their long time effects seem to be really bad. Dependency, Sexual dysfunction etc. And if stopped after long use, the withdrawal symptoms are too bad. I better stop now. I have not taken it today. Lets see how it goes.

alright then I will get back to assembler. Will be back soon. Maybe tomorrow...