Life on a treadmill !!

I have been so busy lately. And I like it.Last Tuesday was a deadline for three things and I met them all. I felt really proud of myself. I thought I will do lots of things over the Thanksgiving break too. But for the past three days have done nothing. Should get done with my assignment and read my thesis atleast once. On monday I want to take a copy of my writing and the code, put it in a folder and give it to my prof. I have not met him for so long. He will read through the whole thing and suggest changes. I hope all this done before school starts in Jan and I can defend my thesis in Jan. I am so ready to get done with it and move on. I am in desperate need of a change. I seem to be thinking of it all the time. And I get very emotional when I think or speak about it.

I wish I can motivate myself to write more often. It is such a release.

Since thursday I have been on the phone with Sid continously. We talk a lot. I will miss him a lot when he goes away. And the end seems very near. I know I should brace myself. But it isnt easy. It has never been easy. I dont know if I will survive. We'll see. It has happened before. I survived. It will be little harder this time.

Sometimes I am so curious about my future. I know things will change. Because right now things are not stable. Everything thing in nature eventually comes to a stable state. Eventually attains equilibrium. I hope my life also follows this principle.