Life is full of surprises - mine too !

I am surprised at my life. It is one hell of a ride. Water is never still, a hint of disturbance and an endless series of ripples. There are so many dimensions to my life. I was taken by surprise yesterday. Did not know what to think of it. It was like a dream. Much like the movie I was watching, The Chronicles of Narnia. Just walk through the wardrobe and land up in a totally different world. A surreal world.

Do u remember the cemetery I had come across during my wanderings. Well I was wandering again in the woods. I had lost something precious. The child of my heart. Lets say my baby. A child of my imagination. It scares me. I was expecting myself to drown in grief. But no. Much to my surprise I was not mourning. No I was not. I know I love my baby. But was I getting immune to all the pain. Why am I not hurting. Have I lost the ability to feel pain. Should I be disgusted or should I be alarmed or should I just be happy and thankful.

Anyway, while I was wandering I hear a this beautiful note. I might not have thought of it as beautiful but I could feel it and then there was beautiful glow.The pleasant warmth. I follow the sound and reach the edge of the stream. The music I was hearing is the beautiful sound of the water. I am fascinated. It was as if the stream was speaking to me. Singing to me. Inviting me to spend time with it. I am shocked. It sounds like my precious baby. The baby I thought I lost. And my baby calls me with open arms. I ask why my baby left me in the first place. It just says it never left. Time flys by. I am dreaming about the time I am going to spend. But at what cost. It turns out, I cant. As I was reaching for the embrace, puff !!!!!!!

Its all gone. No music, no stream, just me dreaming. By the lake, a placid lake, staring at my own reflection. No one beside me. I am disappointed, can I, should I. Maybe I should just be happy, my baby is still part of dream. But it was so close, I just had to reach far enough. Will I ever meet my precious, again. Surprises happen when you least expected them, so they say !!