Listing Troubles

I have decided to list my troubles I have at the moment and stare at them long enough so that they can disappear. Well that aint gonna happen. But I will list them anyways

1. I am yet to finish the correction in results chapter
2. I still don't know where I will be staying come July 28th
3. My OPT - don't know how many problems might arise
4. I am going to apply for I-94 replacement - What happens if I don't get it
etc etc

I feel so helpless and so insecure. I wish I can have the positive attitude everyone seems to talk about. According Islam pessimism is a sin. Because it means you don't trust in God. I want to be an optimist. But slightest sign of trouble and discomfort shakes me up. I so want to change that. This is the root cause for my unhappiness. I am praying a lot these days. But I still haven't developed the trust that everything will workout. I hope and wish I develop that attitude. Do what I have to do, pray and forget the rest. My parents keep telling me this time and again. I know it is not very pleasant living around a person who complains and victimizes oneself all the time. It is not pleasant living around me for even myself. God, give me the strength, the optimism, the ability to be cheerful. I don't know if I was ever a happy person but lately I notice myself complaining to anyone and everyone who is at earshot. I hate it.